Usually I'm not one for sap. Or sappy stories or chick flicks or mushy interactions between people. Frankly, some girls just drive me nuts with their desire for affection or a boyfriend. Sometimes I wonder if they really know what real "love" is. I don't think being in love means going on two dates with someone and saying you love them. Nor do I believe that love is always going to be hearts and glitter. Love is a process. If you love someone then you love them through thick and thin. You love them even when they do things that annoy you. You can get in fights and recover from them, because you have an underlying love and care for the other person.
I think love occurs when you truly care more about the other person than your own self. You want the best for them and you want to be the best you for them as well. I wish people would understand this. I think that if people would understand this, many more marriages and relationships would last. You and your partner wouldn't get in one fight and then call it good.
So one might ask, why is this one my mind?
Am I trying to be hopeless romantic? (maybe)
Or is my subconcious trying to tell me something?
For me I don't believe that there is just "the one" that is out there waiting for you. I think that there are many people out there you can be compatable with and can live a happy life.
But what if one person is ALWAYS on your mind no matter what you do or who you date. The one persons name is always in your mind. And it just feels so right, you would do anything to give your relationship a chance.
But then again what if this one person doesn't feel the same way about me?
Is this a hopeless case?
It's hard knowing you love someone with your whole heart and not knowing how they feel about you.
What if they don't like you anymore or don't feel the same way. That might be the hardest part for some people. Letting go of someone they have set their whole heart on, and then having to moving on. It's scary and hard.
But then again, what if they do feel the same way but you just have to wait to find out what is going to happen. That's the problem with the future. It's very unpredictable.
But what if someone else walks into your life and shatters all the plans you made? Because that person is perfect for you too? That idea kind of freaks me out.
But for me, I'm going to pull out all the stops. I'm not giving up until all my resources have been used.
This post if full of many "What ifs". I hate "What ifs".
Well future, I'm ready for you.
There is my extremely sappy, dramatic, teenager post. I'll try to keep these to a minimal. Thanks for reading :) And hopefully you understand it. Haha
xoxo,
Nichole
