My blog has been neglected for some time now. I usually don't write a post unless I have a sudden burst of spontanteous thinking and want to write it out, so it can make more sense. Well at least to me. But tonight I'm not really in that mood. I just feel like writing. Ok maybe I am in the mood. Who knows. Is this post really random? Yes. I guess I can write about things I need to improve on. That'd be good right? Admit my problems. Hello, my name is Nichole. I have a problems with being selfish, jealous, and insecure. Although I feel like I have improved a little on these things I wish I could conquer them.
For example, selfish; I am a selfish person. I generally think about my own comfort rather than stepping out of my comfort zone and helping people out. Such as my family. I put up a fight whenever they ask me to do something and I don't want to. What gives me that right? I owe them for every good thing I am now. I am working very hard to have a better attitude towards them and think about them more often.
Jealousy. For some reason I am a very jealous person. I even wrote a poem about jealousy. Cool huh? But that's beside the point. I get jealous when guys talk about girls that aren't me. How dumb does that sound? Wow, way dumb. It may just be a girl thing. Like when you know a boy likes you but they nonchalantly talk about an old girlfriend or something. The green monster of jealousy is right there sitting on my lap. I think this leads me to my next thing I want to improve on, insecurities.
I am confident in many things I do. But sometimes I feel so insecure I just want to run home and stay in my room. This usually occurs when I am in large groups. Weird right? I think it's because I want people to like me. And if I think they don't I feel really bad.
Geez I'm a weird person. But I'm ok with that. Ha. I don't think I should post this late at night. But if any on you have any suggestions on how to help me improve with any of these things, lemme know. Until then..
Nichole :)
